Sometimes Trusting In God Happens In Moments Not Seconds

Trusting in God is not easy at the beginning of our walk with Him but it is something that we must do to truly see His glory.
The world teaches us “I’ll believe it when I see it”, but God teaches us that believing is [what brings about the] seeing.

Today my baby boy (5) had his first major work done at the dentist.
He got an extraction and needed to be mildly sedated.
Which meant he’d still be conscious but he’d be sort of out of it. 
It doesn’t sound like much, especially when you call it “mild” sedation but I was so worried. He’s my baby, my little boy!

*I worried about the sedative and if it’ll be safe.
*I worried because usually, you don’t know you have allergies to something till you’re exposed to it. So every time they ask, are they allergic to any medication I always say “not that I know of” just to cover my end.
*I was worried about exactly how dopey he’d be afterward.
*I was worried because they didn’t let any parent go back with him and I am there for everything.
There were countless amounts of reasons I could have, and sometimes did, panic over.

But I had been praying since last night.
I had prayed for God to be in that room with him.
For God to help the dentist do a good job with him.
For God to give me and my son peace about this.

I prayed this prayer many times but something that I knew, was that I needed to believe and trust in Who I was asking and His ability to do it.

I needed to pray believing in what I was asking for, for me to receive and walk in God’s peace.

It’s not that I doubted God’s ability because if anything that thought kept me grounded in His presence but as a human and as I see a piece of my heart walk away alone behind those doors to do something that is so foreign and new to his child brain, I worried.

But something I noticed is that when I prayed for peace, trusting in Him, I found it. I also noticed that worry crept in very easily in this situation so I found myself laying down my worry a lot.

But the point I want to stress is that no matter how many times I picked up my worry, every time I prayed for peace I had it.

Trusting in God is not something that comes easy for a lot of people. 
I wish I was like Abraham when he heard a word and just believe and walked.
My faith still needs to grow and I am thankful that I can realize that and push through the lies of the enemy and work at keeping my focus on Jesus.

It doesn’t matter how many times we fall or for how long we have been struggling with things,
God is FAITHFUL. 

When we step out in faith and genuinely trust in Him He will always be there.
He understands our human fickle hearts.
He knows our worries and has compassion for us.
I am so thankful that He is so gracious and taught me to trust in Him today.
And I know this won’t be the last lesson either.

I pray that we never get so comfortable with life and where we are that we find ourselves “safely” resting in complacency.

I pray that I will always need to trust in Him for everything and that I will constantly be learning more about Him and always finding new ways and areas to trust Him in.

I loved today because, even though it was not easy, seeing God show up, again and again, was such a beautiful experience for me.

It’s a wonderful feeling when we get to see His hand in the middle of the trial and not only after it.